"The Angel" Written by Myself

   I was walking down the rocky, stiff road of the country just staring at the ground when all of a sudden I look up to see two parallel lights coming straight for me. My hands shifted to my face, but the light was too blinding. I realized it was a car and it was probably about to be the end of my life. The light went black…and that’s all I remembered.

   I lightly opened my eyes and saw that it was very bright. I rubbed my eyes to clear my vision, and noticed that I was looking straight into the eyes of a girl who was the prettiest I ever saw. My facial expression blankened and I could not stop starring at this girl. She wore all white and she had the greatest smile with the most perfect teeth. So white! It was mesmerizing! Her hair was a golden blond and she had the deepest ocean blue eyes! After I had processed this through my brain…which never really did completely finish processing since she was so beautiful, she said to me, “Everything will be okay.” and she let out a slight smile then got up and walked away. She appeared to be so caring; I just couldn’t believe what I was seeing with my eyes.

   I sit up and take a look around after the girl leaves. She was walking up a set of stairs with a golden railing and I just realized, C-c-could I be in heaven!? I saw angelic-looking girls EVERYWHERE! Everyone was wearing white and I even saw a few boys. Some of them were playing the harp and some were reading as they walked. They were all over the place. It was full of them. Some of them wore gold chains and necklaces and there were all kinds of mini trinkets and gadgets. It was so beautiful, it was a place I could stay in forever and never want to leave. In fact, I didn’t want to leave!

   I saw the girl with golden hair and blue eyes again. She was coming toward me. She led a hand gesture telling me to follow her. So I got up and walked toward her. I felt something I could not describe. I’d never felt it before. I felt very happy and I felt like everything was perfect and that everything would be okay. It was just a weird feeling but good at the same time. When I reached the girl she led me up the stairs and then as we got higher it kept getting brighter and brighter. It felt like forever just to get to the top of the stairs, and once we were at the top all I could see was the girl since the light caused everything around me to look all plain white. The girl said directly to me, “My name is Angela. You’ll be okay. It’s just not your time yet.” These words confused me a bit, and as I was trying to think this through, she softly kissed my cheek and then the next thing I know…I’m in my bed! How did this happen?! I thought I was in heaven, but then I now understood why she said, “It’s not your time yet.” and I looked up and smiled.

Merry Christmas! Remember the good things!

Alright! So I haven't made many posts recently due to my super busy schedule, but I would like to be making posts more often; so bear with me.

   So you know those times where you feel so down that nothing will EVER get better? Well, let me tell you. They always get better. A few months ago something tragic happened to me and I thought nothing would ever get better. I pretty much felt like I shouldn't even exist, and I felt like every time things got better they just all of a sudden got worse again. It's the worst feeling.

   Anyway, since this is the Christmas season I'd just like to say that this is a time of year for joy, cheer, and happiness. Why? Well, many people don't understand the real reason, but it's because Christ was born! It's the time to celebrate. It's why people are so happy! There may be more reasons to be happy, but words I remember hearing from the priest the other day, "sadness turns to happiness"... As he was talking the same thoughts came to my mind as he said those exact words there. I used to be sad, but now I'm happy! I mean, it happened. 

   At the end of November I finally told myself I would be happy, and that this year would be the BEST Christmas I'd ever have even though I felt more down than I ever had felt. I was tired of feeling down. When you are determined to have good things happen; they will. That's when my life got better. I stopped worrying about other things and I got my life together again. 

My sadness has turned to happiness this Christmas. It's like a miracle.

   Just keep in mind that no matter how hard life is you can never give up because giving up shows weakness. When you fight through the tough times you end up stronger in the end and it all turns out for the better. Trust me.

   Hope you enjoyed this small incerpt coming from me from my life. Although it's not so detailed, I just wanted to share. And I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas season and a Happy New Year!! Don't let the bad things get to you. Keep the good things in mind. ;)

<3 <3 <3

What is Love?

If you want to know what love is, then I will tell you. Love has many different outlooks and there isn't just ONE way to love or be loved. There is many. Love can be as simple as showing some care for another person whomever it may be. It can be supporting someone who needs it or being there for someone in bad times. These are only a few examples of ways that people can show some of their affection for people which isn't exactly Love, but it comes a long WITH love.  WHEN you love someone, all that matters to you is that person. You want to make sure they are okay and make sure all their needs are being met. You wanna make sure they stay happy. Love does NOT always involve that giddy feeling that you may feel inside though. This is what throws most people off. They think they don't love someone because that feeling has disappeared. The thing at this point is that you have to decide IF you are going to keep loving the person to best of your ability or find someone new. When you find someone new you will have that giddy feeling all near the beginning but it will fade...and all relationships will be like that. The trick is to MAINTAIN the love. That feeling doesn't say if you love the person or not. Love is a feeling BUT it is also a choice. You have to chose to keep loving someone in order to ever find a lifetime type of love. Love is a difficult thing to deal with but something also very important is God. God IS Love. With God I'm sure Love could be maintained quite well. God can make ANYTHING possible. If you keep God in your relationship then there will surly be Love because God IS Love. Right? Well...keep in mind..
Love is patient.
Love is kind.
Love does not envy.
Love does not boast.
Love is not proud.
Love is not rude.
Love is not self seeking.
Love is not easily angered.
Love keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil.
Love rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects.
Love always trusts.
Love always hopes.
Love always perseveres.
Love NEVER FAILS.

So....that's my talk about love.  and I guess its sorta about relationships too...but LOVE is very delicate and should be treated properly and never be messed round with. God gave us humans Love and He created us out of love. Its probably the greatest thing in the world, but then again God IS Love and He IS the greatest thing in the world.   

Homeschooling/Public/Private schooling

 Well the time has come where many of us have already started school or will be starting school. I am home schooled so really I can start when I please(not to brag or anything), but home school rocks! There are ups and downs just as there are in a regular public school or even a private school, but some people prefer one type of school over another mainly because they have different preferences. Like me; I enjoy homeschooling because it fits my schedule better and I can be more flexible with it. The tough part would be trying to sit down and follow my schedule because I have so much going on that my standard schedule is never really followed. Anyway, I am here to talk mainly about public school/private school vs. home school and how I came to decide which was best for myself and offer some advice to you peeps(the readers).

For those who do not know, I have been public schooled most of my life. I was public schooled K-6th grade but then half way through 6th my mother pulled me out and home schooled me(I did K12 which is more like an online public school). Then half way through 7th grade my mother put me back into public school because it seemed that I never wanted to do my work(that seems pretty normal for all youngsters especially) and when I went back to public school I was afraid that it was going to be difficult but in reality it was easier and I liked it because it was easy, and being the "new" girl I made more friends because people welcomed me which was pretty nice. I had a pretty good time in Junior High school, but the real "boom" happened when I hit High School.

In High School I had some good friends and I made new friends to start the year, but I also struggled with other things. I struggled with relationships and all this other stuff that a teenager my age should not even need to be worried about. At one point I became depressed and it was pretty bad. My parents did not trust me and I had lost all my friends for the most part and I did not know why. They just left me and then I was lonely...

During my Summer after my first year of High School, I thought about all sorts of things. I was actually excited because my family had thought we would be moving away somewhere else and I figured that if that happened then it would be like starting a new life for myself and that is what I truly wanted. I felt that I needed to seek better people to be around and try to improve my way of living. Then, later in the Summer my mom decides that she is going to home school my sister again(and my sister has home schooled a little longer than I have) and she was also going to home school my brother. The more that sunk in the more I thought about home schooling.

During my thinking process of deciding to home school, I thought about what I would be missing in public school such as the proms, homecomings, football games, etc. I realized I would be missing all that fun, but I felt that home schooling would lead me to a better life for myself. I found out that home schoolers can also have such events or they can even still attend the public school events. I was sucked more into homeschooling thinking I would be going to a bunch of school events with old friends, but as I started homeschooling I noticed that not many of my friends really talked to me anymore. Were these really friends? I don't know and perhaps I never will, but of course I do still have a few people from public school that bother to communicate to me. Anyway what did that give me? It gave me the knowledge to know who really seemed to care about me. That is sure an upside. Yes, I lost friends, but it does not matter. I've met even more amazing friends through homeschooling and I am very blessed for it.

You may wonder how I can meet friends when I am home schooled, but it is really not that difficult...okay I'm joking, it is difficult! But the thing about it is that it pushes you get out more in order to make friends. In order to make friends you have to become more involved with activities and things outside your home and that also enables us home schoolers to experience more things in life. In order to meet someone you don't even have to be at some kind of event or party, you can meet someone at the park, coffee shop, book store, etc. In public schools kids are mainly just meeting with the kids in their classes and yeah, you can make friends that way, but you can meet even more people by having the capability of being able to go out often.

How are our social lives kept up with? Well, for one we can make friends as I have just mentioned, and then we talk to those friends. Duh! Another popular thing with home schoolers is that some may have the ability to talk online like maybe their "school" has a message board like mine did. That is one way I met a ton of really great friends, although I am still working on meeting them all in person....yeah....I have A LOT of home school friends online...and ALL of them are wonderful! In my opinion at least.

Thought this would be fun to share and all in all it sums up everyones stereotypes for home schoolers and seems pretty accurate to me. Lol.

As a home schooled student I have learned to be more independent. I make my own schedules and have to time everything myself in order to make sure I'm getting enough done within a certain time. It can be tiring sometimes. Whew! And a homeschooler's biggest weakness is probably procrastination. Yes, we've all probably heard the term. We get distracted by the internet most of the time and we just do not want to do our schoolwork. Then after that we just get stressed about it because we are behind in school but then we are so depressed that we don't have the energy to fight it and so we just get stuck in this big hole...well, not all of us end up like that, but it CAN happen and you just need to be aware.

In order for us to avoid falling into a big hole of darkness that seems impossible to get out of, we have to push ourselves everyday. We MUST motivate ourselves otherwise nothing will be done. It is tough, but it's also possible.

Another good thing to know is that if you are new to homeschooling then you WILL have to adjust to it. Some people might start off well right off the bat, but most people are going to struggle especially if they are used to a public school.

A few reasons why: 

• Homeschooling is done ALL on your own. You'll need to learn how to schedule and make things fit with your time.
• Must be motivated. In public school you have teachers who have certain due dates for things and consequences if the times are not reached. With homeschooling it's all just you so you need to find ways to stay motivated about your work.

• Homeschooling normally has more difficult work than a public school. In public schools the 12th grade is usually only at a 10th grade level so the 12th grade in public school is like 10th grade for home school. Impressed? Well that's what they say!

So, do you prefer home school or private/public school??  Leave comments or any questions you may have below. If you want anymore advice then feel free to ask me for some because I might be able to help.

Ta ta my lovelys! Have a fantastic day and hope your school year is the best it can be! :D